overview how i fallen in love with him...

aku jth cnta ngn die tnpa paksa pn...

He done nothing and I’m in love with him. Saya jatuh hati tanpa perlu conversation yang panjang, it just happened. Love is blind. I believe in that.

1stly, aku Pendam sorang2. mula dlm kls...He’s with his gang and turn out to be tak seperti dia yang sebenarnya. Dalam kelas I tak tegur pun dia. tapi I selalu curi2 pandang dia. sebab suka dia lagi.

Hihi. *blush.

Mencintai dalam diam...
I really love to see him datang kelas dengan baju belang dia tu. Dia ada banyak baju plain. And ada 1 baju tu belang2 macam kek lapis. Bila nampak dia, I tersenyum sorang2. Suka. Siap cakap dlm ati, “az4 nampak sangat sedap and yummy lah”. Hehe. Nakal.Sepanjang dalam kelas, tak pernah cakap dengan dia. Dia pun tak cakap dengan I. berbulan tak cakap. Walhal kelas sama. Susah. . msg la jd saksi sglanya....How we started, how we date and perhaps how we get married. Hehe... Ya Allah, after months tak bercakap, tiba2 kami hantar message at the same time. I was thinking of him while he was thinking of me. Serentak. What’s that supposed to mean? hehe....

i klo ada mslh... rela cr die dr owg laen.... bcerita.... sb die phm apa yg i nk smpaikn....
pnh ada time 2, i mmg syok kt die abis... bley plak die mntk idea nk tackle owg len...adussss,,, xska nyaaa.... time 2 ada gk i bg nsht... tp xikls... 2 pn sb i pk di bkn BF i kn... at tht time...

smpai laaa 1 saat i bg hint btoi2 pye... test smda die rs x pe yg i rs...
hehe... best gk.... POSITIVE... haha....
so, we've been couple on 2.9.2008 haha.... at highway.... wahhhh hbt kn....
amazing....

till now hope till my last breath.....

.....end......

long time no see...

hello everyone.....

hye.....

^--^

haha...

sound hepy rite???

huahaaa....

mestila i hepy sb bley spent time with my famili smpai la dh nk update my entry...

soe yer pmbca setia sy a.k.a my love, MR.AZ4...

yes i tgh bcuti...

jd sgt pemalas...

i admit this....

nk bgn pg kdg2 ssh...

pas sboh smbung tdo...

then akn dgr suara my mum jrit2 aroung 9 o'clock...

"syhhh mak, abis sume jiran dgr.... mlu tw sy..." keh3...

this is the last time cm 2 cz lg 2 ari dh nk lik hostel...

keep going as usual life as stdent...

so, i kna w8 up early.... no more loitering...

huhuhu.... again n again....

but...

saat yg plg i tgu is....

nk jpe my heartbeat laaarrr....

miss him damn much.... he3...

rndu nk hv time 2gether....

2 weeks xjpe rs cm lm sgt lak....

newey... xsbr dh nih...

byk nk ckp2 ngn die...

biar die ltih dgr sy bebel....

trma jew tw....

mwhxxxx....

sy hrp awk pn rndukn sy.....

dh la mcm dh byk lak 2lis....

jpe ag....

nyte....

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my sis convocation.....

my family...

congrats dear sis 4 ur convocation...
nothing cant describe our happiness on tht day...
so, lets pic tell u olz....

syukur...

2 years and 2 month being his girlfriend...
thx dear shayang...

u r the loving caring sweet person..

a true love measure the compatibility not by the years we r spent 2gether, but how good we r...

"He made me promise once that I would always be his. I made him promise that he would always love me, and he would always be mine. I am going to always keep my promise, as long as I live, even though he didn't."

I will always love you,mr.az4...

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

i hate u but i love u so much....

i hate u when u r late replying my message, its keeps me waiting....

i hate u when u reminding me the mistake that i've done, becoz its make me feel guilty even i've already asked 4 forgiveness...
i hate u when u laugh at me, it makes me want to pull ur hair.... annoying tw....

i hate u when u mad at me, cz its make me scary..... its hurt me badly...

the most thing i hate about u...

is...

i keep loving u even u keep doing the thing that i hate about u...

I LOVE U

I MISS U

<>

end of this day...

hahaha.....
alhamdulillah...
congrats my dear fwen, both of us perform very well...
akhir sdh derita embedded system...
a lot of questionare 4 us....
briefing in english, elaboration in malay....
how witty us in front of the judges at dt time... he3...
only us noe...
my fwen eyta... thx sb sgp wat prject ngn aku...
hya kita tw btpa tension nyer wat sume nih...
but we still hv another 1 mini prject, which is c.system...
circuit.... n nk gna Osiloskop.... adeiii... azab 2....
sb xreti...
bkn nk kata... tp dh 4 taun kt cni, still xreti2 ag...
slmt serabut kn otak 1x ag....

my dear shayang...

cian awk ye...

lately sy bz sgt...

xdpt nk entertain awk mcm sll...

jg kesihatan...

sy rso sgt...

hrp2 awk cpt cht...

sy cma smpt tmn awk mkn jew...

sy lth sgt sb lack sleep...

soe dear...

love u...

Get well soon...

pity him... hu2...

suffered with flu+a little bit fever...
rlx my dear shayang...
t8 a rest...
t8 ur medicine...
i love u....

maaf syg....
sy xsgja nk wat prgai...
xsgaja nk bbnkn awk...
miss u a lots...
damn much..
wlupn kdg2 adaati yg tluka...

<<>>

a few things in 1....

i'm regret about something...
i'm scared...
what if all the thing i had before is gone??
i dont want to end its like this...
please show me the way...
something happens....
its makes me realize that loyalty, patient, love and respect are most important things in relationship...
i love him damn much... always...!!
i know my emo, my status, lately everything seem x ok kn??
it is jz wt i felt...
i'll die if i lost him...
really...
i'm evrything i'm tht u love me...
awk mgubah hdup sy...
khdiran awk dsisi sy wat sume nya indah...
awk jew tw mcm ne nk pjuk sy...
awk tw sy sensitif, n how fragile my heart it is....
awk bljr utk trma sy...
akhirnya...
awk jd yg tbek wat sy...
awk bg sy kasih syg yg xmgkin owg len pnh n bley bg kt sy....
awk pnh cry ngn sy...
awk trima famili sy...
awk pndai cerita, awk phm sy...
awk xska sy bebel sll2, tp klo awk bebel sy tpksa dgr, sb awk comey... he3...
what i want now is u here... stands by my side...
i need ur shoulder, i really do...
i cant m8 another step without u...
i deserve to be happy... u 2 dear cyg...

everything happen unplanned...

myb bcoz of a lot of asgment, mini prject that m8 me tired... serabut...

my dear cyg... thx cz trying 2 understand me...

yes you are!!!!

bidang KEJURUTERAAN nih adalah pilihan ku...
so means aku kna gk truskn smpai lah aku dpt sgulung ijazah...
ssh mcm ne pn aku kna gak usaha....
mudah2an... Amin....
aduhai cita2...
knapalaaa smpai saat ni kau sll brubah2....
ish2.....

MUHAMMAD AZFAR ABAS....

he's also my choice.. he3....

sb awk sll ada ngn sy snce kta mbr smpaila skrg...

dr nek PBE2483, shggala PAT1560, sy xpnh mrungut...

kn???

sb sy tw status kta skrg...

sb sy tw kta nih msih bgntung pd PTPTN n PARENTS...

i know. u owez wanna do something tht m8 me convenient....

sbnrnya sy x ksh syg...

mmg pn kdg2 sy diam, tp bkn sy protes...

but i'm doing myself theraphy....

sy bljr trma awk seadanya...

syukur alhamdulillah...

awk milik sy smpai hri ni wlupn bkn yg hakiki...

sume tu bukti kesabaran n keiklasan kita...

arini dh 2tahun 1 bulan 24 hari awk lalui hdup ni sbgai teman sy...

mudah2 awk tercipta utk sy....

AMIN

tired....huh...

hye blog...
he3... lately ari2 aku update kn,
he3...
bkn apa, keghairahan aku dtg tb2...
this entry belong 2 me n my fwen..
dr aku wat diploma smpailah wat degree skrg nih...
still da same...
no changes....
huhuhu... pity us.... tired of all this matters...
he3...
geram toi aku...
bab aku paling xska, dr mla duk kukum, smpailaaa ke unimap skrg nih,
ialahhh..... BAB TGU BUS... grm+boring..
t mla lh mlut aku nk mgomel mcm...
he3...
td jew... 2 jam aku ngn kengkawan tcongok kt kangar...
adeiii... skit ati kowt...
dh la ngntukk...
pns lak 1 hal ag...
uish... b++ skit ati aku...
cair dh m8 up, sunblock pn dh xda function ag dh...
ktiak nih xyah cite.. mcuk mSm daaa...
he3...
(sj gimik lbey)
asal ada bus bhenti, tkedek2 laaa kmi g tye..
"kg.y ka??"... "x,smpg.4"..
"kg.y ka??'...."x, kbg gajah...."
"kg.y ka???.... "x, pauh.."
adei...
mn dia....???
aleh2 kul 4 bwu ktowg nekbus kowt...
dr ku 2 tgu...

nek jew bus, haaaa kn....
xda nmpak rupa dh, tgkap lentok lew...
sdr2 jew dh smpai k.perlis...
he.....
ltih gilaaa....

aduhaiiii...bla laaa sume ni akn brakhir

sbr laaa wani oi.... sbar jg kwn2 sume

bpe sem jew ag

Ya Allah.... kuatkanlah semangat kmi, dan tingkatknlah kesabaran kami untuk mnempuh hari2 mndatang dgn pnuh ketabahan...

go forwad....

dear mr.az4....

sy tw, tym sy writing dis blog, u r studying there... i hope so... cz i owez trust u...
sy tw awk mmpu capai cita2 2....
awk mmpu jd yg terbaik...
awk ada sesuatu dlm diri, cma awk perlu bykkn bdoa...
insyaAllah...
doa sy sll utk awk...

awk igt x lg...

"ltk impian stinggi bintang, klo jth pn sgkut kt awn,

ltk ati ke dasar lautan, klu timbul pn tsgkut kt batu krg....."

igt kn....

time 2, hya kta 2 jew, jnji utk sm2 bjya, wlu x shebat mn kn....

mudah2an ada ruang utk kita......

sy taw awk mmpu, sb sy sll ykin ngn awk....
sy xkisah sapa pn awk, jgn mls2... jgn ikutkn perasaan...
seeking for a better life k...
hdup nih kdg2 xseindah yg kita impikan, tp sbnrnye ada kmnisan yg kdg2 kita xsdr...


Ya Allah...
teman sy...
buah ati sy...
mesra kmi pnwar duka...
rindu kmi mnmbah cinta..
rajuk kmi mmbuah ceria...
dia ketawa, sy gembira...
dia sayu, sy syahdu...
dia layu, sy pilu...
dia cemerlang sy gemilang...
rahmatilah kmi meniti usia...

msih ada lg hrpn utk kta... utk itu n ms dpn...

dapatkah sy mnjdi sumber kekutan dlm dri awk,

sprti awk tiupkn sgla kekuatan stiap kali sy merasa kcwa n myerah kalah...???

msih mmpu kh sy mnjdi tmpat awk bsndar dsaat awk lmah n mahu rebah??

mudah2an... InyaAllah...

<<>>

an entry for him....

hypeee...

this entry r not related 2 anyone....

jz utk tatapan aku n dia... hek2...

sowieee...

....yup...

again.... again... n again....

nape sy ska ltk pic die???

sb sy shayang die... heee... all the way k...

thats all... muahahahak....

bosan+lapar...

c u then....

i'm getting better..

thx dear 4 d advice..
thx my lovely sis 4 lending me ur time, gv me a call early in d monink...
thx gk utk diri aku... he3... thank you ALLAH..... owez bless on me...
syukur alhamdulillah.....
inilah hdup..... xlari dr sume dugaan....
tndanya Allah sygkn kta....

luluh...

heee...

sdh hmpir 12jam fikiran aku kusut, fikirkan khidupan, smpai nk tdo pn aku pning ag nih..
its no a big things pon....

tp ntah laaa, trasa mcm mnusuk kalbu, n akhirnya airmata pn bcucuran.. huwaaaa...

lepas satu.... satu....

ape suma nih....
tlg hntikan wat aku jd serabu...

apepn pd saat ni aku miss umah aku, the best place i ever live... sume ada kt c2....
but now, i need some theraphy.... really needs it... tp my personal DR... very bz.... pity him...


hmmm...
lemah kn aku...

aku perlukn seseorg saat nih...
need a warm shoulder...
btol aku xtpu...
nk cry puas2...
then nk dgr kata2 yg sptt nyer aku dgr....
buat aku tseyum....
:)
(dear cyg, i'll wait 4 u)

post aku ari sume emo2...

dh aku mmg x ok...

nk wat cmne...

klo xska...

shooooohhhh2...

bjuta blog ag kt web nih...

ok???

when the life is....

hi all...

i'm so sad now...
i did something horrible today ( i guess so)
i'm regretting it
stress sgt...
(is dt really my fault??? or slip of my tongue???)

napa yer kta sll biar emosi t8 control of mind n act???
kpda yg bkenaan sy mohon maaf sgt2...
i'm sorry 4 every harsh word i ever say...
i shouldnt say such thing 2 u..
sorry 4 letting my emotional control my mind...

sorry again.. i never meant it....

i jz wanna told u...

i didnt mean it...

i'm not shouted at u...

plz... believe me...

thx 4 hv a time with me... even 4 a while...

i really appreciate...

{kdg2 percakapan sy kasar, n wt sy x sdr, ada ati yg terluka}

..a person who needs ur forgiveness..

chin up wani....... thats life...

mr,az4 waiting 4 his dinner... he3...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

adeiii...

pimples...

jrawat makin nek plak 2,3 ari nih...

uishh.... tbaeklaaaa...

sy mmg ska bela jrawat nih...

(mr.az4: jgn marah yew... sy tw t awk bbl2.... ckp sy x jg mkn...

btw sy ska awk bbl, trsa awk caring jew....)

b4 we going 2 our home,sy plan wanna treats mr.az4, cheeze choc at secret recipe...

sy tye nihhhhh... awk xnk jwb eh??

skali jew tye nih...

kira xnk laaa eh...

jmt duit i cyg... he3...

(tertakluk pd bdjet k...)

kebelakangan ni sy cpt trse ngn mr.az4...

sy tw awk bz... sb sy pn cm2 gk...

byk bnda nk kna setel kn...

i know dear u doesnt hv much time 2 entertain me...

tp bila sy tdo sy pksa diri sy utk maafkn awk...

sb sy nk awet mda sll he3...

sll nyew mrh sy kjap jew...

sb esk pg bla bgn jew, sy mesti nk dgr sora awk pye...

he3....

wat2 mjuk... sb sy tw t awk pjuk...

shayang awk...

gudluck cyg...

truthfully.....

Every day, after i knew what had happened, i am so GRATEFUL TO GOD that he is there..

-still laughing
-still smiling
-still singing beautifully (4 me only)
-still being witty
-still being naughty
-still being pampered

yeah..... u cheer me up my dear...!!!

i'm rarely... n limited edition...

he3... dis entry xda kaitan ngn sapa2 kcuali ttg diriku ini..
he....
aku nih cpt tw klo nk emosi nih...
jnis xleh thn emosi...
jp jew leyh jd xwaras.....
tp aku sll jew terapi diriku...
dh jpe personal doctor... he3..
die yg tbek...
>>>>thx 4 being reminder, LOVE U...mr.az4

a fact random about me....
>once i kove someone... i'll love 4 the rest of mylife...but it will immediately stop,once that people mess up with me.
>i love reading quotes.... i can spent a lot of time seeking 4 a sweet n nice quotes...
>i'm a bit alergic with seafood... it m8 me immediately in flu...
>i can stand longer when window shopping... he3

insyaAllah....

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame


Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way


>>>>>1st time aku dgr lgu nih... aku xtw nape cm attract sgt....
full of meaning...so moral value kt cni, whatever we did, dont care wut people said about us... cz Allah owez by our sides....
>>>>>i'm learnt from that lesson

between us...

owg kata wk2 bcinta sume indah... bt not 4 me... aku a bit xstuju lar... sb byk btoi dugaan yg kami lalui untuk mghampiri usia pknalan stkt ni kn..... tp aku syukur sb dah smpai thp ni...
owg kata Allah uji ikt kmampuan kita, tp mmpukah aku trima dugaan sbgini... xrebah kh aku.... adeiii...
aku xpnh mrungut....
apatah lg mgeluh...
sb ujian 2 lh matang kn kmi...
thx mr.az4 4 being a part of my life...
" sy tw awk xpnh bosan ngn sy... mndgr jew cloteh sy wlu kdg2 awk xphm pe yg sy cb nk smpaikan... mklumlah cite sy x ikt sequence... n yg plg pntg sy rs sy mghargai wk2 kita bsma....& thn cinta wlu smpai saat ni kta msh lg di uji...>"

the best way adalah sy mnerima awk seadanya....
sy xskuat mn wlu owg tgk pertuturan sy kdg2 kasar... tp ati sy x k...

but...
its not 2 hard being his couple...
its so lovely to have him...
syukur, Alhamdulillah...
thx/>>

life...

less than a month i'll b at my home... merbok... ahaks... preparing 4 my big bro wedding reception(20/11/10)....
miss my home damn so much....

Tbuka pintu atiku....

he3.... stelah sekian lm aku x update blog nih... nape la tb2 jew trasa nk smbung lik...
smgt syawal lh nih.... newey slmt ary rya... maaf zhir btin... bosan nyaaa... lm nya aku nk kna tmpuh hdup nih.... smga sume nyer bjln sprti yg drncg dgn izn dr Allah....
mudah2an....

tension nyer dok cni....

nk blik umah esk.... ye... ye....
hehehehehehehhehe...
syok nya nk lik umah... nk mkn byk2.... tnsion ah...

dugaan wt aku

Ya Allah... kuatknlah kesabaran aku....
mudah2an ada hkmah dsbalik sume ni......
thx wt suma yg backup n phm aku...
tuhan je tw pe aku rs...
sdey sgt2....